If nothing else, at least I'll be able to say I got to celebrate a very important birthday with a very important friend. Whatever the future holds for us.
I guess I'm starting to realize that it's not good to put too much distance between you and the ones you love, no matter how painful the alternative. La Tuque was worth all the awkward silence. Those hard laughs were worth all the latent insecurity; all the imaginary conversations and the unfair comparisons. I'm still not at peace and maybe I never will be. But I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all.
I needed this week and I need this night.
And maybe I all I need is ten thousand more like them before I die.
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